kelam dunia

kau tak adil.

kau sekat segala-gala nya.

semua nya kau kata kan tidak.

hanya tidak yang boleh kau ungkapkan.

tidak kah kau tahu itu adalah cara aku untuk merasai nikmat hidup?

nikmat hidup yang tak seberapa ini?

yang sangat 'daif' jika nak dibanding kan dengan manusia-manusia lain.

jadi ini lah cara ku.

itu pun di sekat dan di kawal.

kau tahu betapa pilu dan sedih nya hati ini bila kau katakan tidak kepada segala-galanya?

betapa hancur nya hati dan jiwa ini?

seolah-olah kau ambil semua diri ku dan simpan kan ia di dalam balang kaca.

seringkali hati ini meronta-ronta untuk memberontak,

tapi itu semua tidak mungkin kan?

aku tahu. kerana apa?

kerana mereka adalah mereka, dan takkan berubah.

walau tangisan darah mengalir.

jadi apa yang boleh aku lakukan sekarang?

aku sudah sedar dan tahu situasi dan hakikat tidak boleh berubah,

apa saja yang boleh di lakukan?

apa? mengalah? atau sebalik nya?

masih menjadi persoalan itu semua.

aku letih penat memikirkan nya.

sekarang aku hanya merasakan diri ku dicuri.

di sekat itu perkara biasa, aku sudah lali.

tapi kini yang terbaru, di curi.

lepas ini apa pulak ya?

aku tertanya-tanya.

sampai bila?

aku takut aku tak mampu terus kan lagi.

memories?

memories, i'm sure all of us have at least one.

be it good memories nor bad memories. either way it is still remembered.

good memories are preserve through pictures, home videos, what else? (i am not very good with these sort of things, my apologies.)

bad memories? aha, this is something i am expert (can say lahh) on.

BUT,

as time passed and i grew more mature, i learned that memories are something you will stuck with forever.

talking based on experience, no matter how far you go, how fast you run, sooner or later, you will come to one point where you just don't want to run anymore.

enough is enough. :)

i spent most of my time running until i don't realized what am i missing.

then again, i always believe that everything happen for reasons.

*credits to Nor Asilah Asmadi*

FACEBOOK is where i found all my childhood friends.

thank you for tagging me in all those almost forgotten memories.

i don't have much pictures when i was little.

so i have to rely on friends n such. heh.

what a mess i am back then! but somehow my heart felt warm whenever i look at this picture.

(T_____T)

my pathetic first attempt!

never in my life that I felt such doubt in myself. as for those who know me well, I am not a 'doubtful' person in any way (ohh soo i said). not just that I felt that doubt, i also felt the intimidation and the eerie feeling of unable to do such thing. before I go on and on (blaberring) about this piece of shit, I am talking about MY FIRST ATTEMPT OF DRIVING AFTER I OFFICIALLY RECEIVED MY LICENCE. one pathetic attempt may I add.

yes I know I am considered lame to write about this as there are people who already wrote about this like 3 or 4 years ago. what can I do, I am late bloomer for heaven sake! plus, there much more to life than just to take that freaking dreadful driving classes and tests! Pak Cik Is, thank you for the driving lessons! ;)

most people took their driving licence when they were 18 or 17 even 16 years old. but i took mine now (i am 19). why? lets just say that i have some issues with responsibilities. i mean, when i finished my high school, i don't even trust myself whether or not I can leave the car that i'm driving securely lock or I will not lose the car keys. even now I don't get to hold or keep my house keys since I already lost it for 2 times. i think my dearest father gave up on me upon this matter. Sorry Babah! i guess i am born this way? :D

anyway, the story goes like this, 3days ago, i officially received my P licence. therefore it means that my dad also officially let me drive. today, when i came back from college ....

(at my parent's office)

Babah: Mana lesen P kau? (with a smirk on his face.)

me: (searching through my pile of junk in the bag) err? nahh.

Babah: hmm. official dah laa nie?

me: duhhhh.

Babah: then, go and fetch Adik from school.

me: ohh? which school?

Babah: he's in bdr tasik selatan for his soccer practice.

me: (jaw dropped!) my parent's office is in bukit jalil, my little brother's school is in Bdr tasik selatan. not that far actually but it is far me whom is still fresh to this vicious driving world! (fine i am being dramatic.)

babah: why? kan dah ada lesen?

me: (with a doubtful but trying to cover up myself tone) fine, lets go, you are coming with me.

babah: alright. lets go.

overall the journey was okay (according to my dad) but according to me it was CRAZY! this is where my frustration and doubt came in. i even feel disappointed with myself! i hate it when i feel this way. really hate it.

persoalan nya sekarang: can i drive or can i not? (T_____T)

what will you do for the sake of love?

how far would you go for love?

will you go beyond your own expectations and abilities?

will you?

i am blessed to have found someone very special that fills the blank in my heart.

thank you for everything that you have done.

:)

annoying orange

• my lecturer, Mr. Philip said in class after our (me and Zaza Jamil's presentation the other day), if you walk like a lion, roar like a lion, then you are a lion. therefore, if you look like a teacher, talk like a teacher, then you are a teacher. it is very inspiring if you asked me. ;)
• ANNOYING ORANGE.

my friends said i am similar to this orange dude. am i?

heads up!

alright people, i'm gonna start blogging once again. this is for real. i need blogging therapy. yes, i just realized. bummer. well then, where to start? oh wait, i hate blogging this way. =___=

• i just started my degree year (kinda). yes, i manage to not to extend my foundation. currently in my first year, first semester in English Language and Communication degree. this course demands a lot from me. i'm serious. but for a nerd like me, i dun mind. :D
• this semester's subjects includes: Bilingualism (one tough class but very interesting) ; Expository Writing (the lecturer is very cunning, like seriously!) ; Principle and Practice of Language Teaching (A.W.E.S.O.M.E! it made me thinking of a career in teaching field. what do you guys think?) ; and last but not least Study Skills and Employability (oh so-so)
• bye bye PSP, hello Ipod Touch. thank you oo beloved mother!
• backpack to class! then again, i have no problem with it since i am a nerd. ;)
• i have a cool sushi designed Bros water bottle.
• display my relationship status with a certain someone (ehem ehem muhammad Ezuan) only because i lost a friggin bet! (or is it? ;P)
• stuffed myself with whole lot of good food and succesfully gained some weight.
• i miss my mushy head Jesmyn Tan. i hope she's doing fine. :(
• rekindle relationship with old friends.
• i am hiding all my previous post as they are crappy as ever and to indicate a new beginning. oh so i said.
• trying to boost my cgpa! i have a very SAD pointer last time. shame on you Liyana!
• celebrated zaza jamil's birthday! here some pictures!

• aku tidak current dan sangat oblivion jadi maafkan aku sekiranya aku tak faham atau tak tahu apa yang sedang anda semua perkatakan. tapi, aku sedang mencuba.
• i cant leave without facebook. actually, i accidently dumped my blog because of facebook. damn you evil social networking site!
• friends are like stars, you dont always see them but they are always there.
• i did something beyond my expectation. i dun even know i am capable to do such thing. O__O tak sangka but aku sayang dia dan full stop.

• i have a big round head. proof as follow: sedang mencuba alternatif tudung.sebab? aku selalu bangun lambat dan tak sempat iron/pakai tudung biasa. dun blame me, blame ucsi, this semester my class are all in the morning. =__=

• i am not random, i just like to relate stuff.

i think its enough blabs for one post. till then people. please expect more from me. :DD

have a good day all! *tilt hat*

byebye foundy!

dulu di sini lah tempat segala nya ku curah.

perasaan (ini memang byk lahh, konon nya hidup penuh drama)

buah fikiran (pathetic attempt to talk of 'serious' issues)

daily life (masa masih di bangku sekolah)

tapi sekarang?

hati masih ingin berblogging tapi masa jadi halangan.

:)

anyway, my last post was 1st April 2010, and today is already 29th April. whoah, it have been AWHILE since i last blogged.

• finals exam Semester Three are over. so, it is goodbye to Foundation and hello degree! excited!
• i'm already 19! T___T
• kini sedang menikmati 'cuti' yg UCSI 'generous' sgt beri.
• i have a new pair of black 8inch peeptoe as a 'happy grow up a lil bit' day from him. :|
• new haircut
• apa lagi yg NEW ya?
• new rack for my comics (all thanks to Jesmyn Tan, Zaza Zahar, Zaza Jamil, Sashareen Omar)
• new attitude?

a very Expensive DIY photo album!
:D

i lalove these people very dearly!

selamat datang April

pejam celik pejam celik tiba sudah kita di bulan April. bulan 4 dari 12bulan dalam setahun. cepat pula masa berlalu. terasa singkat benar. sedar tak sedar, aku hampir mengakhiri tempoh Foundation. itu pun kalau aku tidak FLUNK any of my subject untuk semester ini. if God willing, i'll make it through. i was browsing through Facebook and found this;

APRIL BORN

amiable. diplomatic.
always ready to help others.
adventurous.
great sense of humor.
loves to enjoy life.
totally active and restless.
more emotional than practical.
a good motivator.
spiritual and God fearing.
good looking and sexy.
faithful lover.
hasty decision maker.
brainy and clever.

maybe some of these facts are true and definitely some of it are totally bogus. i mean, come on. active? nahh. adventurous? all i know of adventurous is adventure tongue. no fear to try new food. that is more me.

a warm welcome to the month of April. i hope you'll be better than your brother March. :)

till then~

a hectic week ?

jari berdetap detap pada keyboard colourful yg perlu ditukar tak lama lagi sambil muzik indah bermain di Realplayer. apa ye nk ditulis? hmm.

another hectic week passed by.

• HC final forum done! i think we did quite good. too bad Jes cant be with us.
• Jes suffered from TDS (temporary Deaf syndrome) and have to go for a minor operation. =__= get well soon!
  
• spend the whole week with my Lalalove! sebab last week dia training petang. haha.
• masih tiada berita dari si Anonymous.
• screamed at my brother's face and felt very guilty yet satisfied at the end. (whatta?)
• belajar perkara baru. *wink!
• bace Hatiku di Harajuku for the countless of time.
• masih belum pergi amik ujian undang-undang driving. study pun belum lagi!
• final exam is just around the corner.
  
• last sem cgpa like dummy. not even 3. whattahell! all because my supp paper. huwaa!
• this sem need to bounds back!
• next sem (insyaallah) akan msuk degree. wahhhhhhhh!
• pergi menjenguk ke pesta hot air balloon.
  

the group!
brian, sinly, anne, edmund,sasha, zazaa, angeline, zaza, panda, sue fei, me.
not in the picture: Jes.

our class!

the video!
the story behind this video.

MC

putrajaya

tunggu kedatangan ku.

that's all for now. toodles!

kisah si Anonymous

it has been awhile since i last blog.

alot had happened during the period of me MIA-ed from this blog space of mine.

sometimes, i even asked myself, "am i lying to myself? or its just another one of my randomness that kicks in?" nonetheless, i'm trying my best to keep things as they are.

no words from Anonymous any more. sad? yeah, kinda. Anonymous have been a very good friend. it is a shame for me to lose such a good friend. the 'best' part of all this is, i dont even know whether if i did something wrong or said something wrong. then again, world doesnt revolves around me only. it might have been of Anonymous PMS-ing. i dont know. i really hate it when i dont have a clue about what's going on. it gives me the chills of revisiting the past. uhh. the ugliness of THAT past. [p/s: if u are reading this Anonymous, i just want you to know that i dont want to lose a very good friend like yourself.]

moving on ~

i finally got to watch Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief! hahaha. all thanks to Zaza Jamil who downloaded it for me. she went all the way to MMU. but of course she doesnt do it on the sole purpose of me, she also gained benefit from the trip. also, she downloaded My Sister's Keeper for me. but sadly, the movie was quite differ from the novel itself. the ending. but, the movie made me tears yet again as the novel did. *clap clap* a piece of artwork that is well crafted yet well written! *standing ovation! to Jodi Picoult*

me and mates figured out a way to enjoy leisure but at low cost. haha. sharing is caring!

well, till then fellow earth residents! ciao~

shoelace bukan sekadar shoelace

i'm writing this while chewing Shoelace that Jes bought for me. i always eat the strawberry flavoured ones but the cola and apple flavoured also not as bad. that's why in life we need to have guts to try something new. what we got to lose? who knows, we might find something we love at the end of the journey. see, Shoelace candy just as not as simple as candy. it's how you see it. perhaps, life is also likewise. but then, who am i to even talk about life. i havent live this life as much. for god sake, i'm not even 19 yet. what are my rights to talk about life. i'm just a simple girl that still struggling to find who am i, what am i and how am i going to survive all these.

ohh right thee then, lets put all that aside, shall we?

well, highlights of the week, my dearest Jesmyn Tan just turned 19! woohoo!

what we did for her? *hehe*

we surprise her for lunch at Chilies. well, she thought she's on a date with the boyfie. actually, the surprise was quite normal BUT the whole process before the surprise is UN-normal. i merely gone insane!

• present: a long brown purse from Ripcurl (as she wanted.) upon purchasing this present, i had to run like i never ran before. note, i am not a running person. in fact, i am not any person for those vigorous activities. =__=
• Sasha made a photo album for her. DIY. as we all know how she love DIY stuff. with lotsa pictures. provided by me.
• steal Edmund's the boyfie) number from her cell. ooh, that's my job. took it when we were at Jes place, on final individual HC presentation.
• both zaza's figure out the place, invite people and all.
• then, on the day itself, Ed's car broke down, then we ended up loitering around Midvalley while waiting. but in the end, everything turn out OK.
• have a post party at Neway with chocolate session. ber lalala sampai tekak berdarah. huhu.

here are some pictures:

group pictures at Chilies

nampak macam soo kesian rite? haha.
we are waiting for Jes.

post party!

birthday girl looked soo happy.

selamat hari lahir Jes!
mwaaaaa. love u to bits lahh!

my dearest psp, may you'll have a better life with ur new owner.
i don't want to, but i have to.
you have been more than just a gaming console. you have been with me in my darkest hours. be at my side when i needed no human beings to even talked to me. thank you.
btw, mine was the white one. the black one is my lil brother's.

muzik teman di kala kusut

WHEN I LOOK AT YOU : Miley Cyrus

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the night's are long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy
Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you
When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone
Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you
You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that
Cover me
All I need
Every breath, that I breathe
Dontcha know?
You're beautiful
Yeah yeah..
When the waves are flooding the shore
And I cant find my way home anymore
Thats when I,
I I look at you
I look at you
Yeah yeah..
Oh oh..
You appear just like a dream to me

OST of the upcoming movie The Last Song. a brilliant piece of work by Nicholas Sparks. from novel to filmscreen i am really looking forward to it.

note to self

for the time being, i just need to keep reminding myself of the positive.
how great it is, right on the time when i am about to really change, it happen.
on the bright side, nasib baik. hmm.
God is trying to tell me something. i just know it. but what?
mayday mayday mayday!
i need MYSELF back stat!
current mode: AKU, SAYA, SELF, INDIVIDUAL and ME.

unamed

AKU HANYA MANUSIA BIASA
YANG MUNGKIN SEDIKIT kks !!!!

hate yuu!

at times it is fun when you're not number one. also, at times, it SUCK big time when you don't even know what number you are at.

thank yuu, Jamilah Zahirah Jamil.

hello fellow earth-residents!!!!!
today is just full with love love loooooove!!!
Zazaa J just came back from a short trip to Vietnam and bought us these awesome bangles! wow! i LOVE bangles! and it fits me! yayy! it's kinda hard to find cute bangles that fits me nicely.

*Zazaa, thank yuu! mmuahhh!*
photo, kudos to Mushy-head-Jes!
mine is pink and Jes's is the purple one!

i was at the train station at 7.10 for our morning Nasi Lemak session.
but unfortunately, Sha woke up late and had a really bad headache so she cant pick us up.
but no worries, she's fine now. yayy!
while me and Zazaa killing our time doing nothing and waiting for the less crowded UCSI shuttle, ewan came along to join us. then around 7:45ish, this is what we saw!
(please refer to the picture above!)
WHATTAHECK rite? damn ramai orang!
the problem is, the enter place thingy that opened during that time is only ONE. freakin ONE!
somehow it looked like something i saw in Baraka before. the one when the separate the baby chicken in factories. funny!
kinda dumb if you'd asked me. because you see, the LRT people obviously knew that there's alot of people using this station (as it is an interchain station for ERL and also KTM) but still they only open one place. thank god they open all four ticketing counters. *sigh*
kesian mereka yang nak pergi kerja itu.

Sashareen and Liyana
it have been long since i last hang out with Sasha alone.
i realized this as i was making my photo-collage (i'm in the mood of DIY, curse you Jesmyn Tan!) i realized that i have the least picture of me and Sasha alone. always with the other three camerafreaks. hehe.
then after helping Mr.Hellis with his Public Speaking class we went to Midvalley to *ehem-ehem* for *uhuk uhuk*. fyi, i went to Midvalley twice that day! wth!

anyway, as i were saying, today is just love love love!
i've been cuckoo all weekend and finally today i found my ketenangan!
*laughs!*
it is soo nice not being KKs anymore. undivided attention from him. i like i like!

toodles, people!

for you i will

perhaps not many of my friends aware of my obsession towards Asam Pedas. but i bet my high school friends know. esspecially Zabri. kan kan? :D anyway, my cousin (kak Nor who is a very good cook) from Singapore come for a visit yesterday. and bring us this scrumptious cuisine! my favourite Asam Pedas with a hint of black Pepper! the heavan-nity of this food is added when it is cook with ikan pecuk which a kind of fish that really hard to find in KL markets. for me, Asam Pedas is best eaten when it's raining outside and not be eaten instantly. i mean, the flavour is much much morw awesome when it is eaten the day after it is cook. when all the flavour have come together like really really come together. wahhhhhhh! i feel soo alive talking about this! for you i will do anything Asam Pedas! *drools*

to Zabri, ini lah dia Asam Pedas yang aku selalu cakap tuu.
:D

did i ever tell you guys that my dad's koi fish buat upacara mati beramai-ramai? it happened like a few weeks ago. about 8 of them died due to something like Ammonia poison. i was like WHATT? Ammo-what? uhh, chemistry! but today, we went koi fish shopping near Jalan Pasar. :D my dad bought like 6 fishs to replace those were dead. there even silver koi fishs! really white wye! and ooh ya, i officially enrolled to a driving school. hmm. thrill? not really. why? don't ask.

*i'm in need of cash. thinking of letting go of my psp. anyone interested?*

terkenang

i cant sleep. it's 1:50AM. i don't know why that recently i have this weird flashbacks of those high school times. it's messing with my head yet my heart. i hate it.

wait! i'm not saying i don't want to remember those time. the past is who we are today. it's just that sometimes, it tend to be merely overwhelming. and it's not a good thing.

well, i am randomly cant sleep and trying to find stuff to do till i feel sleepy. dear mp3 is plug-in to my ears.

hmm. let see. ooh, let's play 'mine'. click ...

*music play*

You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm go ing through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.
You came along just like a song
and brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away.
And now you know I Can't Smile WIthout You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If you only knew what I"m going through,
I just can't smile.
Now some people sa y happiness takes so very long to find.
Well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.
And you see,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
Y ou see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,

I just Can't Smile Without You

of all the awesome song i pick t be in 'mine' why must this song came out? at this time? goodness gracious! again, down the memory lane. *hey you! i did not have Starbucks ever since. let's have some when the time comes ok? (if you're reading, but i highly doubt it.)* anyway, do any of you recognize this song? hmm. it's Barry Manilow - Cant Smile Without You.

mungkinkah aku rindu?

jiwa manusia

NAFSU?

KEINGINAN?

manusia sering kali terperangkap dek dua elemen ini. aku juga, seperti manusia lain yang tak pernah terkecuali untuk jatuh ke gaung nafsu dan keinginan ini. terlalu banyak nafsu yang lantas telah menimbulkan pelbagai keinginan. keinginan untuk memiliki. memiliki apa? bermacam-macam. material, kasih sayang, perhatian, penerimaan, dan apa saja. lumrah hidup, satu masalah timbul, walaupun nafsu membuak-buak inginkan sesuatu, adakah kita sentiasa akan dapat apa yang kita inginkan itu? tentu nya tidak. kenapa begitu? mari lah kita bersama-sama renungkan kembali mengapa keinginan itu disekat. aku percaya, semua perkara terjadi di atas sebab. bak kata orang putih bermata biru,"everything happens for reasons." walaupun begitu, adakah kita dapat lihat sebab itu? tidak semua golongan boleh berfikir dengan sebegitu rasional. aku tahu, kerana aku lah golongan itu (at times.) aku selalu berharap agar aku boleh jadi golongan yang sentiasa rasional tanpa selalu dipengaruhi emosi tidak stabil. tapi, harapan tinggal harapan kerana it is easier said than done.

sayang? atau sayang?

“sayang, sayang sayang sayang takk? Sayang sayang sayang.”

Banyak kan perkataan sayang itu di ulang-ulang dalam satu ayat? If you ask me, it’s kinda annoying. Okay, apart from that. I am writing this upon the courtesy of Anonymous, very good friend of mine as I mentioned in my past post.

Apekah yang tersirat di sebalik perkataan ‘sayang’ itu? Adakah ia sekadar perkataan semata-mata yang boleh diucap oleh sesiapa pun? Atau, ia adalah lebih dari itu? I’m sure this must came across your mind before. Satu lagi persoalan yang melibatkan ‘sayang’ ini, apekah sebenar nya konsep sayang itu? Wujudkah konsep sayang yang definite or sayang yang variety?

Mungkin kata-kata aku sekarang tak dapat diterima dek akal kalian. Tapi, what am i trying to say here is, wujudkah di dunia yang kita hidup sekarang ini sayang yang definite dan sayang yang variety? Apa itu sayang yang definite? Apakah pula sayang yang variety?

Maksud aku terhadap frasa ‘sayang yang variety’ adalah, perasaan sayang yang mempunyai level yang membezakannya. Contoh, aku sayang Eika, Zabri, Ghazmil, Jesmyn, Zaza, Sasha, dan Zazaa (sayang mereka sebagai sahabat), aku juga sayang Mama, Babah, Along dan Adik (sayang mereka sebagai keluarga). tapi dua-dua pun sayang. Cuma, mestilah berbeza tahap dan level perasaan sayang tu terhadap dua kategori ini. Tapi lain pula si Anonymous kata, dia kata, sayang is sayang (sayang yang definite). Macam, makan nasi, makan ayam, makan donut, tapi semua pun makan. Makan tetap makan. Boleh terima takk apa yang Anonymous kata ni? Sebab, pada aku, memang lah makan is makan tapi bila kita makan, sama tak rasa kenyang makan nasi dengan rasa kenyang bila kita makan donut? Berbeza kan? Tapi sebab aku sayang Anonymous, aku terima apa yang Anonymous kata. (terima tak semesti nya sokong.) And because i believe that everyone have the right to say what they’re thinking.

Moving on ...

erkk? my brain is currently slumped! wait wait, please don't crash baby! i need you now! my Lord! uhh! lemme take a deeeeeeeep breath ..... i give up! better luck next time!

~toodles~

kisah final individual presentation HC

sangat semangat membuat visual aid untuk presentation.
no kidding! i am not good with these sort of things but suddenly rajin semacam wanna do all these. weird but true. these picture are evidences!

taa-daa! siap! not soo bad huh? *blushed*

on 25th february 2010, FINAL INDIVIDUAL PRESENTATION FOR HUMAN COMM. OUR LAST CHANCE! whoah! no pressure there. yearrite! hmm. the topic was, to persuade. we are needed to do a presentation that will persuade our audience to believe whatever crap we are saying. the choices were, we could sell products, invite audience to join associations or club, and anything that could persuade others. therefore i choose to invite my audience to join an activity club. credits to Ms. Zazaa Jamil because she help me when i was brainstorming. i made an imaginary baking club that is new at campus and needed membership. long story cut short, my presentation was not really succesly executed! Mr. Hellis (my lecturer) commented that i needed to plan my movement. that is his polite way to say that I AM EVERWHERE. it's dissapointing because i had the similar comment when i was debating in high school. but my debate coach was even straight-forward,"Liyana, you need a straight-jacket." but i still love you both, Puan Nurul and Puan Malini. how dissapointed am i when got to know that as if i didnt improve since high school! WHATTAHECK? but as Sasha said,"nevermind Lynn, dah lepas dah pun." yeah, she's right. the best part of all this is it's only 5% for our carry mark. AWESOME!

among all my classmates who did their presentation that day, it was Panda's presentation which i most like. i love the poem part. she even looked as if she wanna cry! seriously! heartfelt! job well done Panda! ooh ya, her topic was Organ Donation. now even i am considering to be a donor. wow, she really persuaded me! my other classmates did well too. Anne (classmate) did on selling a breast firming cream! and Qym (classmate) did on sanitary pads. they got guts! and yet we got a few male classmates too. wth, even our lecturer is a guy! hahaha. funny.

btw, i am writing an awesome piece! but still in my draft though. it might take some time. *wink. kalau ade sebarang idea yang nak dikongsi, ape salah nya."

bye for now!

komik makin banyak. rak tuu pulak dah macam melengkung dah. nak runtuh ke awak? tiba-tiba Mama kate suruh jual konik kat pak cik surat khabar lama. sungguh terhina rasanya!

food poisoning

ooh my my. my last post was in mid January and now February is nearly over. my goodness! it is true that i am becoming more and more lazy to blabs here. why? hmm. let see.

• too much stuff going on everyday that even i dont have the time to write about it.
• perhaps because if i do blabs here, all my post will be so black, cloudy and not too mention EMO. we don't want that rite? yes, i do believe that sharing is caring, but i believe that i should share those moments which is happy, cheery and rainbow! a very good friend of mine, let's name the person, Anonymous. dia kata, everyone can share happiness with others, which part of it that shows you care for that person? dia kata lagi, untuk dia, sharing those darkest moments baru laa betul-betul care. WHAT DO YOU THINK?
• i have loads and heaps of assignment that still on hold. malas nya!
• having too much fun with fast-going life right now. although, still on bumpy journey but whattaheck, hidup aku, aku nak enjoy! tak nak peduli dengan drama kau yang tak matang tu!

what else? ooh! UPDATES of my current life;

• if God willing, i'm gonna finish my foundation in April and start my degree soon after that. maybe around May. woohoo! goodbye maths, econs and all those ridiculous calculation subject.
  
• i PASSED my Economics paper! yayy! Econs is hard people! i don't know how i pass but thank god i did. a pat on the back to myself and Zaza Zahar! i still cant believe we passed!
  
• i hate food-poisoning! yes, i'm writing this while my tummy is giving me the hell of time! that's it! from today onwards, i am gonna watch what i eat. i gained weight anyway. uhh. the torture of living in a country with variety and delicious food. curse you Malaysia! *hehe. joking. saya sayang awak Malaysia!*
• to my surprise, i am still in a relationship. LOL! but .... ;)
• still blessed with friends that i adore soo much!
• Eika doing good as well. despite the alarming phonecall that make me tak boleh tidur malam.

apa lagi nak diceloteh kan ya? i think that's enough for now.

jaga diri semua! hargai lah apa yang kamu ada.