my pathetic first attempt!

never in my life that I felt such doubt in myself. as for those who know me well, I am not a 'doubtful' person in any way (ohh soo i said). not just that I felt that doubt, i also felt the intimidation and the eerie feeling of unable to do such thing. before I go on and on (blaberring) about this piece of shit, I am talking about MY FIRST ATTEMPT OF DRIVING AFTER I OFFICIALLY RECEIVED MY LICENCE. one pathetic attempt may I add.

yes I know I am considered lame to write about this as there are people who already wrote about this like 3 or 4 years ago. what can I do, I am late bloomer for heaven sake! plus, there much more to life than just to take that freaking dreadful driving classes and tests! Pak Cik Is, thank you for the driving lessons! ;)

most people took their driving licence when they were 18 or 17 even 16 years old. but i took mine now (i am 19). why? lets just say that i have some issues with responsibilities. i mean, when i finished my high school, i don't even trust myself whether or not I can leave the car that i'm driving securely lock or I will not lose the car keys. even now I don't get to hold or keep my house keys since I already lost it for 2 times. i think my dearest father gave up on me upon this matter. Sorry Babah! i guess i am born this way? :D

anyway, the story goes like this, 3days ago, i officially received my P licence. therefore it means that my dad also officially let me drive. today, when i came back from college ....

(at my parent's office)

Babah: Mana lesen P kau? (with a smirk on his face.)

me: (searching through my pile of junk in the bag) err? nahh.

Babah: hmm. official dah laa nie?

me: duhhhh.

Babah: then, go and fetch Adik from school.

me: ohh? which school?

Babah: he's in bdr tasik selatan for his soccer practice.

me: (jaw dropped!) my parent's office is in bukit jalil, my little brother's school is in Bdr tasik selatan. not that far actually but it is far me whom is still fresh to this vicious driving world! (fine i am being dramatic.)

babah: why? kan dah ada lesen?

me: (with a doubtful but trying to cover up myself tone) fine, lets go, you are coming with me.

babah: alright. lets go.

overall the journey was okay (according to my dad) but according to me it was CRAZY! this is where my frustration and doubt came in. i even feel disappointed with myself! i hate it when i feel this way. really hate it.

persoalan nya sekarang: can i drive or can i not? (T_____T)

what will you do for the sake of love?

how far would you go for love?

will you go beyond your own expectations and abilities?

will you?

i am blessed to have found someone very special that fills the blank in my heart.

thank you for everything that you have done.

:)

annoying orange

• my lecturer, Mr. Philip said in class after our (me and Zaza Jamil's presentation the other day), if you walk like a lion, roar like a lion, then you are a lion. therefore, if you look like a teacher, talk like a teacher, then you are a teacher. it is very inspiring if you asked me. ;)
• ANNOYING ORANGE.

my friends said i am similar to this orange dude. am i?

heads up!

alright people, i'm gonna start blogging once again. this is for real. i need blogging therapy. yes, i just realized. bummer. well then, where to start? oh wait, i hate blogging this way. =___=

• i just started my degree year (kinda). yes, i manage to not to extend my foundation. currently in my first year, first semester in English Language and Communication degree. this course demands a lot from me. i'm serious. but for a nerd like me, i dun mind. :D
• this semester's subjects includes: Bilingualism (one tough class but very interesting) ; Expository Writing (the lecturer is very cunning, like seriously!) ; Principle and Practice of Language Teaching (A.W.E.S.O.M.E! it made me thinking of a career in teaching field. what do you guys think?) ; and last but not least Study Skills and Employability (oh so-so)
• bye bye PSP, hello Ipod Touch. thank you oo beloved mother!
• backpack to class! then again, i have no problem with it since i am a nerd. ;)
• i have a cool sushi designed Bros water bottle.
• display my relationship status with a certain someone (ehem ehem muhammad Ezuan) only because i lost a friggin bet! (or is it? ;P)
• stuffed myself with whole lot of good food and succesfully gained some weight.
• i miss my mushy head Jesmyn Tan. i hope she's doing fine. :(
• rekindle relationship with old friends.
• i am hiding all my previous post as they are crappy as ever and to indicate a new beginning. oh so i said.
• trying to boost my cgpa! i have a very SAD pointer last time. shame on you Liyana!
• celebrated zaza jamil's birthday! here some pictures!

• aku tidak current dan sangat oblivion jadi maafkan aku sekiranya aku tak faham atau tak tahu apa yang sedang anda semua perkatakan. tapi, aku sedang mencuba.
• i cant leave without facebook. actually, i accidently dumped my blog because of facebook. damn you evil social networking site!
• friends are like stars, you dont always see them but they are always there.
• i did something beyond my expectation. i dun even know i am capable to do such thing. O__O tak sangka but aku sayang dia dan full stop.

• i have a big round head. proof as follow: sedang mencuba alternatif tudung.sebab? aku selalu bangun lambat dan tak sempat iron/pakai tudung biasa. dun blame me, blame ucsi, this semester my class are all in the morning. =__=

• i am not random, i just like to relate stuff.

i think its enough blabs for one post. till then people. please expect more from me. :DD

have a good day all! *tilt hat*