February 28, 2010

for you i will

perhaps not many of my friends aware of my obsession towards Asam Pedas. but i bet my high school friends know. esspecially Zabri. kan kan? :D anyway, my cousin (kak Nor who is a very good cook) from Singapore come for a visit yesterday. and bring us this scrumptious cuisine! my favourite Asam Pedas with a hint of black Pepper! the heavan-nity of this food is added when it is cook with ikan pecuk which a kind of fish that really hard to find in KL markets. for me, Asam Pedas is best eaten when it's raining outside and not be eaten instantly. i mean, the flavour is much much morw awesome when it is eaten the day after it is cook. when all the flavour have come together like really really come together. wahhhhhhh! i feel soo alive talking about this! for you i will do anything Asam Pedas! *drools*

to Zabri, ini lah dia Asam Pedas yang aku selalu cakap tuu.

did i ever tell you guys that my dad's koi fish buat upacara mati beramai-ramai? it happened like a few weeks ago. about 8 of them died due to something like Ammonia poison. i was like WHATT? Ammo-what? uhh, chemistry! but today, we went koi fish shopping near Jalan Pasar. :D my dad bought like 6 fishs to replace those were dead. there even silver koi fishs! really white wye! and ooh ya, i officially enrolled to a driving school. hmm. thrill? not really. why? don't ask.

*i'm in need of cash. thinking of letting go of my psp. anyone interested?*


i cant sleep. it's 1:50AM. i don't know why that recently i have this weird flashbacks of those high school times. it's messing with my head yet my heart. i hate it.

wait! i'm not saying i don't want to remember those time. the past is who we are today. it's just that sometimes, it tend to be merely overwhelming. and it's not a good thing.

well, i am randomly cant sleep and trying to find stuff to do till i feel sleepy. dear mp3 is plug-in to my ears.

hmm. let see. ooh, let's play 'mine'. click ...

*music play*

You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm go ing through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.
You came along just like a song
and brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away.
And now you know I Can't Smile WIthout You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If you only knew what I"m going through,
I just can't smile.
Now some people sa y happiness takes so very long to find.
Well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.
And you see,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
Y ou see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You

of all
the awesome song i pick t be in 'mine' why must this song came out? at this time? goodness gracious! again, down the memory lane. *hey you! i did not have Starbucks ever since. let's have some when the time comes ok? (if you're reading, but i highly doubt it.)* anyway, do any of you recognize this song? hmm. it's Barry Manilow - Cant Smile Without You.

mungkinkah aku rindu?

February 27, 2010

jiwa manusia



manusia sering kali terperangkap dek dua elemen ini. aku juga, seperti manusia lain yang tak pernah terkecuali untuk jatuh ke gaung nafsu dan keinginan ini. terlalu banyak nafsu yang lantas telah menimbulkan pelbagai keinginan. keinginan untuk memiliki. memiliki apa? bermacam-macam. material, kasih sayang, perhatian, penerimaan, dan apa saja. lumrah hidup, satu masalah timbul, walaupun nafsu membuak-buak inginkan sesuatu, adakah kita sentiasa akan dapat apa yang kita inginkan itu? tentu nya tidak. kenapa begitu? mari lah kita bersama-sama renungkan kembali mengapa keinginan itu disekat. aku percaya, semua perkara terjadi di atas sebab. bak kata orang putih bermata biru,"everything happens for reasons." walaupun begitu, adakah kita dapat lihat sebab itu? tidak semua golongan boleh berfikir dengan sebegitu rasional. aku tahu, kerana aku lah golongan itu (at times.) aku selalu berharap agar aku boleh jadi golongan yang sentiasa rasional tanpa selalu dipengaruhi emosi tidak stabil. tapi, harapan tinggal harapan kerana it is easier said than done.

sayang? atau sayang?

“sayang, sayang sayang sayang takk? Sayang sayang sayang.”

Banyak kan perkataan sayang itu di ulang-ulang dalam satu ayat? If you ask me, it’s kinda annoying. Okay, apart from that. I am writing this upon the courtesy of Anonymous, very good friend of mine as I mentioned in my past post.

Apekah yang tersirat di sebalik perkataan ‘sayang’ itu? Adakah ia sekadar perkataan semata-mata yang boleh diucap oleh sesiapa pun? Atau, ia adalah lebih dari itu? I’m sure this must came across your mind before. Satu lagi persoalan yang melibatkan ‘sayang’ ini, apekah sebenar nya konsep sayang itu? Wujudkah konsep sayang yang definite or sayang yang variety?

Mungkin kata-kata aku sekarang tak dapat diterima dek akal kalian. Tapi, what am i trying to say here is, wujudkah di dunia yang kita hidup sekarang ini sayang yang definite dan sayang yang variety? Apa itu sayang yang definite? Apakah pula sayang yang variety?

Maksud aku terhadap frasa ‘sayang yang variety’ adalah, perasaan sayang yang mempunyai level yang membezakannya. Contoh, aku sayang Eika, Zabri, Ghazmil, Jesmyn, Zaza, Sasha, dan Zazaa (sayang mereka sebagai sahabat), aku juga sayang Mama, Babah, Along dan Adik (sayang mereka sebagai keluarga). tapi dua-dua pun sayang. Cuma, mestilah berbeza tahap dan level perasaan sayang tu terhadap dua kategori ini. Tapi lain pula si Anonymous kata, dia kata, sayang is sayang (sayang yang definite). Macam, makan nasi, makan ayam, makan donut, tapi semua pun makan. Makan tetap makan. Boleh terima takk apa yang Anonymous kata ni? Sebab, pada aku, memang lah makan is makan tapi bila kita makan, sama tak rasa kenyang makan nasi dengan rasa kenyang bila kita makan donut? Berbeza kan? Tapi sebab aku sayang Anonymous, aku terima apa yang Anonymous kata. (terima tak semesti nya sokong.) And because i believe that everyone have the right to say what they’re thinking.

Moving on ...

erkk? my brain is currently slumped! wait wait, please don't crash baby! i need you now! my Lord! uhh! lemme take a deeeeeeeep breath ..... i give up! better luck next time!


February 26, 2010

kisah final individual presentation HC

sangat semangat membuat visual aid untuk presentation.
no kidding! i am not good with these sort of things but suddenly rajin semacam wanna do all these. weird but true. these picture are evidences!

taa-daa! siap! not soo bad huh? *blushed*

on 25th february 2010, FINAL INDIVIDUAL PRESENTATION FOR HUMAN COMM. OUR LAST CHANCE! whoah! no pressure there. yearrite! hmm. the topic was, to persuade. we are needed to do a presentation that will persuade our audience to believe whatever crap we are saying. the choices were, we could sell products, invite audience to join associations or club, and anything that could persuade others. therefore i choose to invite my audience to join an activity club. credits to Ms. Zazaa Jamil because she help me when i was brainstorming. i made an imaginary baking club that is new at campus and needed membership. long story cut short, my presentation was not really succesly executed! Mr. Hellis (my lecturer) commented that i needed to plan my movement. that is his polite way to say that I AM EVERWHERE. it's dissapointing because i had the similar comment when i was debating in high school. but my debate coach was even straight-forward,"Liyana, you need a straight-jacket." but i still love you both, Puan Nurul and Puan Malini. how dissapointed am i when got to know that as if i didnt improve since high school! WHATTAHECK? but as Sasha said,"nevermind Lynn, dah lepas dah pun." yeah, she's right. the best part of all this is it's only 5% for our carry mark. AWESOME!

among all my classmates who did their presentation that day, it was Panda's presentation which i most like. i love the poem part. she even looked as if she wanna cry! seriously! heartfelt! job well done Panda! ooh ya, her topic was Organ Donation. now even i am considering to be a donor. wow, she really persuaded me! my other classmates did well too. Anne (classmate) did on selling a breast firming cream! and Qym (classmate) did on sanitary pads. they got guts! and yet we got a few male classmates too. wth, even our lecturer is a guy! hahaha. funny.

btw, i am writing an awesome piece! but still in my draft though. it might take some time. *wink. kalau ade sebarang idea yang nak dikongsi, ape salah nya."

bye for now!

komik makin banyak. rak tuu pulak dah macam melengkung dah. nak runtuh ke awak? tiba-tiba Mama kate suruh jual konik kat pak cik surat khabar lama. sungguh terhina rasanya!

February 20, 2010

food poisoning

ooh my my. my last post was in mid January and now February is nearly over. my goodness! it is true that i am becoming more and more lazy to blabs here. why? hmm. let see.
  • too much stuff going on everyday that even i dont have the time to write about it.
  • perhaps because if i do blabs here, all my post will be so black, cloudy and not too mention EMO. we don't want that rite? yes, i do believe that sharing is caring, but i believe that i should share those moments which is happy, cheery and rainbow! a very good friend of mine, let's name the person, Anonymous. dia kata, everyone can share happiness with others, which part of it that shows you care for that person? dia kata lagi, untuk dia, sharing those darkest moments baru laa betul-betul care. WHAT DO YOU THINK?
  • i have loads and heaps of assignment that still on hold. malas nya!
  • having too much fun with fast-going life right now. although, still on bumpy journey but whattaheck, hidup aku, aku nak enjoy! tak nak peduli dengan drama kau yang tak matang tu!
what else? ooh! UPDATES of my current life;

  • if God willing, i'm gonna finish my foundation in April and start my degree soon after that. maybe around May. woohoo! goodbye maths, econs and all those ridiculous calculation subject.
  • i PASSED my Economics paper! yayy! Econs is hard people! i don't know how i pass but thank god i did. a pat on the back to myself and Zaza Zahar! i still cant believe we passed!
  • i hate food-poisoning! yes, i'm writing this while my tummy is giving me the hell of time! that's it! from today onwards, i am gonna watch what i eat. i gained weight anyway. uhh. the torture of living in a country with variety and delicious food. curse you Malaysia! *hehe. joking. saya sayang awak Malaysia!*
  • to my surprise, i am still in a relationship. LOL! but .... ;)
  • still blessed with friends that i adore soo much!
  • Eika doing good as well. despite the alarming phonecall that make me tak boleh tidur malam.
apa lagi nak diceloteh kan ya? i think that's enough for now.

jaga diri semua! hargai lah apa yang kamu ada.