individu yang memalukan bangsa.

adoii,geram giler aku hari nie.kegeraman melanda betul laa.bodoh sangat laa.aku sangat marah,dan marah dan marah dan marah lagi.

actually aku xdela problem besar sangat dengan para cigarette-smokers nie.bapak aku sendiri pun merokok gak.cume aku BENCI SANGAT-SANGAT bile dorang hembus-hembus asap rokok tue kat muke aku!!!!kurang ajar giler.

hek'ala,ko nak mati cepat,mati cepat sorang-sorang laa,takyah la nak ajak aku sekali.memang bodo sangat-sangat.kepale hotak laa.

bodoh

bodoh

bodoh

jenis-jenis lelaki yang habit nye melepak kat kedai mamak.doing nothing and membuang masa je keje.memang merugikan dan memalukan bangsa je.memang orang camni la yang menghalang bangsa untuk maju dan terus ke depan.memang memalukan.

in the middle of the day,on a working day lagi,tapi melepak kat kedai mamak.apakah?takde kerja lain ke?curi tulang ke?

conclusion is,lelaki sebegini memang memalukan bangsa dan gender die sendiri.pemikiran pendek dan kolot.memang tak maju.

eii,malunye kat malaysia ade rakyat camtu.

kasihan.

finally..

setelah sekian lama aku tidak mencoret-coret di sini,akhirnya aku smapai juge ke sini.ehehe.maafle,tergedick seketika.
first sekali,dengan segala sukecite yang ade kat dunie aku ingin mengumumkan bahawesenye,aku secara rasminya telah menjadi seorang student semula.haha.seorang student di UCSI.tahniah-tahniah.*tepuk tangan!!*
i will start my orientation on the 29th april 2009,haha.nervous kau..hahaha.
aku akan buat foundation in Arts for 1 year pastu terus wat degree in English and Communication for 3 years.after that...who knows...maybe political studies?haha.if god willing..

UCSI,are you ready for me?
or should i say,
Me,are you ready for UCSI?
haha :)

satu lagi berita gumbira yang aku ingin sampaikan di sini ialah,SIRI UNDER 18 No Fear aku akhirnya dah lengkap jua.hahaha.above is the last comic that is missing in my collection,tapi kini sudah tidak missing lagi.hahaha.dah lengkap!!!!tahniah-tahniah sekali lagi kepada aku.hahaha.later aku akan upload gambar full collection aku tue yang kini telah menjadi my most prized possesion.along with my other comics.baru-baru nie,my adik dah gatal-gatal nak menunjukkan minat terhadap komik-komik tercinta aku.haiss,tak boleh jadi nie.bahaye-bahaye.danger-danger.sudah tiba masanya untuk aku maximize security komik-komik aku.haha.*evil laugh*

last sunday i went out with hym for a movie.
talentime was soooo great!!!!
sooo beautiful..
thank you soo much to Yasmin Ahmad for making such beautiful story.
thank you also to hym cz willing to patah balik from Malacca.
i had fun,seriously.
*tepuk tangan!!*

music.addict

flyleaf's members:
Lacey Mosley
Sameer Bhattachcharya
Jared Hartmann
Pat Seals
james cullpepper

aku currently melayan track-track dari Flyleaf nie.melayan emosi dan mental yang msih samar-samar kestabilannya.hahas.band nie dapat recognition dari breakout song dorang yang title : all around me.agak head-banging la jugak.hahas.noo lahh.kalau di-usha2,genre band nie cam Evanescence pun ade.ade certain lagu die music cam very the passionate n emosi but at the same time,ade gak yang cam boleh headbanging.menarik-menarik.dua dalam satu.so far,my most favourite track from them is 'Believe in dreams'.the one that you guys are listening right now.enjoy!!!
*actually,aku nie xde mende nk tulis pn.saje je mnggerak-gerakkn jejari ke papan kekunci nie.*

ohh my my

21st march 2009.
juz sooo luving the date.
why?
ehehe.
with up with him that nite.
at Alamanda.
i realized something...
rupe-rupenye dah lame aku takk jumpe die...
then i realized i miss him soooo damn much...[deih,bape byk kali realized daa?]
i've been kinda suckish girlfriend recently.u noe,cz result n stuff...
i'm my own person.what can i possibly say?weirdo i am.juz too bad.
soooo sayangs him...boleh?
ahaaa...
why on earth i can't stop my mind thinking about that night?????
n always smiling whenever i think about it??
da makin sakit da jaw aku.hahaha.
i always been an extremist in whatever i do...
bile aku da sayang,aku sayang sangat-sangat.
it also goes the other way round...

*hey guys:aku harap kamu OK ngn layout ini...simple jew...xsemak pale aku tengok*
wahai perempuan yang bernama Eika,aku sayang kamu tau.hehe.maaf laa,aku takk keruan sikit masa tulis post nie.ngehngehngeh.

kronologi doomsday

setelah agak lama mendistantkan diri daripada dunia blogging nie,kini aku kembali.
with new hopes and new dream. [note the singular!!!hanya satu saja yang ku kejar kini]
before putting the past in 'Recycle Bin',aku nak share dengan korang semua sedikit sebanyak [before and after the day itself] tentang 'doomsday' 12 march 2009.the date officially became my most unlucky day!

9 march 2009
the media officially revealed the real date for the result SPM 2008 to come out.
media as in.the newspaper,radio and such.
aku?
bahang kecuakan dan kenervousan sudah melanda.tidur malam terganggu dengan mimpi-mimpi nger dan indah.
mimpi hanyalah mainan tidur.
mengalami moodswings.

10 march 2009
everything yang aku buat jadi serba tak kena.
baru ingat nak solat penuh-penuh. [kuangkuangkuang..]
topik sembang dengan kawan-kawan lebih tertumpu tentang result SPM.
planning dengan Eika nak gerak sama-sama on the 12th.
tidur denagn mimpi indah. [ulangan:mimpi hanya mainan tidur]

11 march 2009
behavior jadi makin pelik.
blurr case sepanjang hari.
banyak termenung.
malam tak boleh tidur...
sessi call budi dan close friends,namely:
-eika [we talk untill 3a.m,panas telinge mak.]
-baqir [janji dimeterai]
-shadiq [kata-kata semangat diber dan diperoleh]
-ghazmil [mintak number phone En.Baqir]
-rasyiqah [cita-cita masing-masing diluahkan]
-syafiq [rahsia terbongkar]

12 march 2009
bangun awal giler!! [semayang subuh,solat hajat]
termenung lagi....
wait for eika.
gerak ke sekolah with along.
langkah masuk ke pintu pagar sekolah dengan harapan yang sangat tinggi.
berkumpul dengan x-klazmates yang lain.
dupp dupp dupp....
result masih belum dikeluarkan.
jumpe puan Azlina before ambil result...
bertukar-tukar hugs and kisses.
around 10.40am result bertukar tangan dengan Pn.Rozita
gelak tawa,tangisan kedengaran di dewan Bistari SMKBTS.
aku?
slip result SPM diusha.....
mata bergenang dan akhirnya titisan airmata jatuh berguguran membasahi lantai dewan.
aku terduduk,bagai terkena satu tamparan yang sangat hebat.
junior-junior,Avinash dan Bella datang comfortkan aku.
berite disampaikan kepada wan,along dan mamababah.
mama sounds disappointed.me too.
kawan-kawan lain,dengan perasaan mereka.masih awal untuk berkongsi.
eika dan padmini,sama seperti aku.we support each other and Nada finally join us..
kami sama....
plan untuk bercanda rie selepas itu musnah begitu sekali...
aku dan eika terus pulang mencari ketenangan.
hang out with orang yang paling stabil ketika itu,my sister...
lunch at Delifrance...in need of comfort food...
fasa terima dan redha masih belum dilepasi......

13,14,15 March 2009
aku menyepi diri dari semua orang.
handphone dioff.
mengelak...
berkurung dalam bilik,staring to the ceilling.
hampa,kecewa,marah,tak bermaya.itulah yang aku rasa.
seolah-olah,jiwe dan minda aku kosong.
hampir marah dengan NYA.
diri ini tak nak terima spiritual support.
0n the 15th,akhirnya...i seek help from my mum...
walaupun ketika itu,hati ku menolak semua itu tapu aku paksa diri aku untuk menerima semuanya.
ketenangan masih belum sepenuhnya dijumpai.

16,17,18,19 March 2009
bertolak ke Singapore...
mencari ketenangan disana..
membawa diri [hahaha]
spend time with most beloved cousin,Fazul.
he help me to overcome everything.
this time die tak asek busy dengan girlfriends die. [thank god]
shopping spree......
currently in love with nailcare/nailart now.sally hansen's is love.
kini aku semakin stabil.
on the 19th,pulang ke KL.
handphone diOn...
forgiveness was seeked from dearest.he understands...

20 march 2009
emosi makin stabil.
yayy!!!!
i'm alright!!!!!

~END~
note: dengan penuh rasa malu,result aku adalah : 4A,5B,1E
:'(

tiada point,hanye cz ia sangat cun!!!

offficially aku sangat kecuakan sekarang nie.bile usha countdown widget kat atas nie makin nak terkucil je rase.aihh,apsal laa aku gatal sangat pergi letak widget nie kat sini?ahaa.itu semua disebabkan emosi ku yang takkk bape nak stabil past few days.to be precise,sejak-sejak media umum tarikh result SPM akan dikeluarkan.hm,kenape aku cam overly excited/cuak pasal result nie?orang lain rilek je.disebabkan result PMR dulu tak berape nak semenggah [bukan la teruk giler-giler,tapi result tue tak memuaskan hati aku dan aku telah kecewakan diri aku sendiri],i made a vow to myself that i will make sure my SPM will be better and i will make myself proud.so,dari form4 laa aku telah melancarkan misi ini.ahaa,sungguh semangat waja.well,bile aku telah mengecewakan diri aku,memang inilah yang akan berlaku.push myself.kuangkuangkuang.Okay-okay,back to reality everyone..esok kita akan lihat apa yang berlaku dan if god willing [i mean if i havent kill myself yet..] aku akan menge-post lagi disini.who knows,akan ade kronologi yang wujud disini.haha.okays,till then..i am off to stabilize my emotion..pray fer me and my all my friends kay..

best of luck to all yang akan amek result SPM esok...
especially:
eika
mel-mel
Roy
Padmini
syafiq
baqir
rasyiqah
nadiah
nada
nana
hidayah

IWD 2009

International Women's Day on 8 March 2009

2009 Theme: Women and Men united to end violence against women girls
*this theme is the global United Nation themes used for International Women's Day worldwide*

themes through out the years:

• 2008: Investing in Women and Girls
• 2007: Ending Impunity for Violence against Women and Girls
• 2006: Women in decision making
• 2005: Gender Equality Beyond 2005: Building a More Secure Future
• 2004: Women and HIV/AIDS
• 2003: Gender Equality and the Millennium Development Goals
• 2002: Afghan Women Today: Realities and Opportunities
• 2001: Women and Peace: Women Managing Conflicts
• 2000: Women Uniting for Peace
• 1999: World Free of Violence against Women
• 1998: Women and Human Rights
• 1997: Women at the Peace Table
• 1996: Celebrating the Past, Planning for the Future

in my honest opinion,the most effective themes were 1998,1999 and 2002.although they were just words,but the meaning behind the words really gave an impact to me.maybe because i am so proud with my Girl-Power!!kaapow!!haha.perhaps... there are also various themes around the world in conjunction with the celebration but the theme from Canada is the one which really caught my eye: Strong Leadership, Strong Women, Strong World: Equality.

Content of IWD...

The movement to empower women to make their own decisions regarding all aspects of their lives, including whether or not they marry, choice of professional, economic, and political futures has resulted in many rightful victories for women around the world, and yet the battle is still being fought on many fronts.

If you are a woman, celebrate yourself, your mothers and sisters on this day by taking the choices and decisions you are faced with upon yourself.

Talk with other women, and learn from their experiences, especially those who are older or of a different cultural background than yourself and may have been differently affected by prejudice and sexism.

Ultimately, your life is yours to lead, and if there is a person, group, law, or social stigma that stands in your way because of your sex, it is your responsibility to yourself and all women to confront and change them or it.

nowadays,women around the world had achieve much great success that able to put them in the same line as other successful men.now is the era of Revolutionary for Women.now is the time for women to shine.

optimistic

"there comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who created it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good.after all,life is too short to be anything but happy."

--> my greatest creditz to whom quote this saying,we must enjoy life to the fullest as life is short and just smile!! <--

what's up with all the positiveness and optimisticness?whoa,was that even a word in existence?haha.don't mind me ya everyone?feeling a little bit hyper and FLUSHED!!due to the very hot climate nowadays.ughh..bila laa,KL nak ade snow?harharhar.
i just recovered from fever.i think this is the first time i catch this bug since we jumped into year 2009.wuhuu,1st fever of the year.congrats! *clap-clap*
fact of me: the average of me falling sick [any kind of disease either severely or slightly] is twice in one month.tapi kali ini,demam ku agak pelik sedikit.biasenye,aku akan dapat 4 types of medications : antibiotics,fever,flu,and cough syrup tapi kali nie aku hanya dapat 3 types of medications: antibiotics,fever and muscle relaxant.this is the first time i took the muscle relaxant pills,weird.kenapa?masa aku demam tempoh hari,i felt all the muscle in my body been crushed and cramped.sampai tak boleh nak taip SMS.haha.ouch,the pain,unimaginable!thank god its over.alhamdulilah everything seems fine now.okay,back to the positiveness.i always believe that everything happen for a reason [thanks to a certain someone who 'teach' me this the hard way] and i always believe that don't let any stupidity or idiotic/useless/no good people stand in your way of enjoying life to the fullest.
manusia nie memang sukar nak dipuaskan hati,so why bother to please them?

pilihan

welcome-welcome diucapkan kepada bulan March yang baru tiba hari ini.tahniah-tahniah.hmm.bulan march da sampai..means..result SPM yang ditunggu-tunggu akan keluar tak lama lagi. *background song: Menghitung Hari by Kris Dayanti* haha.perasaan cuak makin menyelubungi diri.tahap saspen yang tak dapat dibayangkan semakin menghantui jiwa dan raga aku.sindrom tak boleh tidur perlahan-lahan memakan diri aku dan slowly men-transform diri aku untuk menjadi seekor Panda bear jadian.arghh,tidakk!!!!persoalannya sekarang..situasi manakah lebih teruk dan menyeksakan:

• situasi A: persiapan selama 2 tahun untuk menghadapi peperiksaan yang paling besar [as all the teachers said it is] in our whole 17 years of living on this surface of earth.huhu.maybe i've been a little bit exaggerating here,not 2 years of preparation.well,some of us might take that 2 whole years but i think most of us [normal teens] took maybe 1 year or maximum 1 and a half year [i took freaking 1 and a half year!!] to do the preparation.well,as we all know form4 is the so-called 'honeymoon' year.time to messed up,tripped and do a lot of other stupid stuff [but then,it look smart] then when we stepped into form5,everything changed because of only one thing..SPM..
• situasi B: penantian [i really HATE waiting] result SPM yang tak tau bila nak keluar ditambah dengan perasaan-perasaan pelik lagi tidak menyenangkan yang menyelubungi diri.sambil freaking out about our future.as in,the Uni applications,course choosing and many other important adult responsibilities.not to forget,some of us who confronting/catching up with their interpersonal conflicts that have been put on hold because he/she need full attention towards SPM.

okay-okay,ape yang aku cuba sampai kan di sini sebenarnya sangat simple,cuma ade sikit mengarut-ngarut je.yang mana lebih menyeksakan? situasi A:preparation untuk SPM atau situasi B: penantian result SPM.
surprisingly,aku rasa situasi B lebih menyeksakan.kenapa?sebab clearly i hate waiting and things that seem ENDLESS.plus,aku rasa situasi A sangat menyenangkan.i have fun preparing for the exams.lagipun,aku nampak halatuju dan purpose segala preparation tue.aku tau bila SPM tu akan tiba.takdela nampak cam endless.

conclusion: aku vote for Situasi B

the question now is,korang pilih yang mana?apa pendapat korang?tell me..