apa yang aku rase??

..music..
what is music???
music pLay a great rOLe in mOst teenager's Life..
music as an escape to all the sOrrOw and misery of Life..
biLe kite having a rOugh day,start Le dengar Lagu-Lagu yang hardcOre tak pun yang meLLow-meLLow..
pastu satu Lagi habit,pasang Lagu kuat-kuat sampai nak pecah eardrum..
tapi kaLu kat umah aku tak Leh r cOz nanti makayah bising,therefOre soLutiOn nye is EARPHONES!!!
yOu gOtta Love technOLogy!!!
pasang voLume bapax kuat..pErgh,satu kepuasan yang tak dapat di ungkapkan dengan kate-kate..kaLau rase marah,memang Lepas,waLaupun tak dapat nak Lepaskan kat Orang tue..pastu kaLau rase sedih,pasang EARPHONES kat teLinge duduk daLam seLimut,tutup main Lights bukak side Light,and nanges La sampai kau puas..mesti OK nye Lepas tue..
cOnfirm,this methOd is prOven!!!



:: EARPHONES Love ::

aku sangat suke this avatar..
Lagi-Lagi biLe mOod tengah dOwn atau mase aku tengah befikir pasaL die..
transLatiOn :: semua benda terjadi atas kerana sebab..
segaLe-gaLenye yang terjadi mesti ade sebab..
itu Lah yang die pernah cakap..
tapi yang buat aku bengang sangat-sangat,aku tak tahu sebab nye ape!!!!
BODOH La..
susah sangat ke nak bagitau???
aku rase die ade je muLut,Lengkap semue..
kaLau tak nak bagitau direct,kasi La mesej ke pe ke..
wahh!!!geram siak aku...
biLe kate benci,aku akan tersenyum..
kenape???
sangat hurtfuL La..
LyNn tak shuker..

me and my dad

aku n my dad

can't it be mOre obviOus???

i Live with peOpLe saying me have the same Look as my dad..

hmm??

i'll Leave that to yOu to judge..

but definiteLy i am nOt inherite the caLm traits of him..

merdeka-merdeka

hari nie aku bangun dari tidur dengan bunyi heLikOpter yang meLintas kat ruang udare umah aku..

dengan keadaan yang mamai,aku seLak curtain tingkap biLik aku tue....

fuyyO!!!banyak nye heLie!!!setiap heLie tue bawak bendera negeri..

tetibe cam ase PATRIOTIK puLak...

pastu teringat bendere maLaysia yang babah Letak kat depan umah,siap dengan pOLe Lagi...

ayah aku tue memang semangat patriOtik yang meLampau,makLumLe bekas askar..

i am prOud of him..reaLLy...

this sunday negara kite maLaysia akan menyambut besday nye yang ke 51..

hOoray!!!

hOpefuLLy kemerdekaan ini dapat dikekaLkan dan kedauLatan meLayu terus dipeLihare..

insya-aLLah ahad nie me n my famiLy nak pegi dataran fOr the merdeka parade [meL2,betuL La pe aku cakap!!]

aseNye dis is the first ever medeka parade yang aku prgi kut..

dah 51 tahun merdeka pun nie baru first tyme aku nak pErgi,eish2...

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hari jumaat kat sekOLah aku ade 'Larian Merdeka' sempene kemerdekaan ke-51 nie..

Larian merdeka nie actuaLLy a nOrmaL crOss-cOuntry yang tiap-tiap tahun my skewL heLd and the rOute setiap tahun mesti same je..

6 km dari sekoLah,LaLu perumahan pOLis and masuk kem askar pastu baLik ke sekOLah..

jauh siOt!!!

and dengan bangge and tanpe rase segan,aku nak gtau yang aku tak pegi skewL pun ari tue!!!

and aku tau ramai kLazmates aku pun tak pergi..

meL2 and rOy definiteLy tak pergi,tengOk muk pun tau..

[muke maLas nak Lari,kaLu Lari pun mesti ngeLat,hehe]

tapi eika and pad pergi kOt..mereke tak peLah,due Long distance runner..duLu aku engat,eika saLu pergi Larian kat Luar tapi skang cm da kurang sket,tak tau La nape,maLas kut..

aku tak pergi cz ase cm penat giLer Lagipun kaLu aku pergi pun wat saket kaki je..hahaha

aseNye dis week penat sangat-sangat,tak cukup tidur,tak sehat..

semue Lengkap...

aLL because of studying...

hAa,i am teLLing the truth nie!!!

reaLLy try my best fOr triaL kaLi nie...

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ari khamis ari tue baLik Lambat cz stay kat skewL..

ase cam sangat maLas nak baLik,dah La nak jaLan jauh,penat Lak tue,sO Lepak skewL jap...

befOre that mase kat physics bO ajak study kat Library n kenaL-kenaL ngan awek die..

hmmmm???

agak berpikir La aku mase tue...

pikir hOw actiOn aku tue bLeh hurt nadiah..

tapi takpeLah,harap nad tak tau..

sO arOund 2:30 pm aku pergiLah sane...

aLL i can say is AWKWARD!!!

umpame cam the girL and the friend reaLLy make me uncOmfOrtabLe!!!

tak suke La camnie!!!

maybe die pikir pLek2 kut...

sO,aku pun gerak La...maLas dah nak hang arOund..

jumpe khaLilah [ex-juniOr tawakaL,awek adek adiLah]

macam cerite and fLashbacks..semue tue kenangan terindah..

dah sembang-sembang sO i decided tO mesej kecik and ain [fOrmer cOmrades and bestfren and skang dOrang tengah perang!!!]

tanye kecik and ain hOw they are dOing..

• kecik dah break dengan epuL [sebab kiss???whatever..]
• ain stiLL a pLayer
• ain kate kecik dah gedik giLer..
• kecik kate ain bajet hOt,suke jage tepi kaen Orang
• bOth kate "takkan berbaek dah" [adeish,susah La dOrang nie,pening paLe aku,tapi cm aku dapat rasekan yang bOth pun stiLL care abOut each other,kaLu tak wat pe ain nk sebOk2 haL kecik and wat pe kecik nak sebOk haL ain,kan2??hOpefuLLy bOth dapat berbaek baLik,eventuaLLy..]

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minggu nie cam tak banyak cerite bOut my kLazmates sebab aku penat sangat minggu sO cm tak aktif sangat..Lagipun seLase and rabu ramai takde cz ramai yang pergi drama cOmpetitiOn..termasukLah buddies aku meL2 and rOy..mase dOrang pergi tue,atikah cam Laen giLer..cam hati die di bawe ke dewan bpr tue..keLakar je..tue baru 2 hari tak jumpe,nanti Lepas abes skewL camne La yek??takpe2,i knOw meL2 and atikah mesti Okiesh nye..kaLu tak pun, meL2 + tikah FC aLways ader tO Lend a heLp,hOoray!!!biLe LyNn nak buat FC tue yek>>nanti La,very busy Lew...

semaLam [hari jumaat maLam] ade sOrang friend teLah meLuahkan perasaan die kat akuh!!!wAhh..cuak jap akuh..die shOoter KL mase sukma terengganu ari tue,shOoter msn gak..sebenarNye da tau OrangNye dah Lame,dari die sekOLah kt SSBJ Lagi tue pun sebab my sis,tapi duLu aku kan 'kecik' Lagi [dOrang kate La] sO skang la baru nak kawan..Lagipun,die kate duLu cm segan nak kawan cz aku nie anak 'en.hamdan'..dah La muke pun same...cam keLakar je..

"wan sebenarnye dah Lame ske kat angah"

dunie menembak ngan myseLf cam dah sebati waLaupun aku sendiri tak tembak..aLL because pengLibatan mak and ayah aku..and pengaruh mereke sendiri daLam fieLd tue..aku sendiri pun membesar kat shOoting range..kekadang aku sendiri susah nak terangkan kat orang camne aku bLeh invOLve ngan dunie tue..duLu mase aku fOrm 2 and fOrm 3,aku pernah nak buang 'Life' aku tue..tapi tak Leh..sekarang aku juz terime semue fLashbacks and histOry tue as a part of me..

camerOn trip 2

a creek kat MARDI,giLer sejuk!!!

LyNn sangat 'bagus' with kids!!!

wahhaaha

maybe with LiLtLe girLs

Liyana adaLah Liyana tapi die nie pun LyNn gak

hahahaha

fOg attack!!!nie Lah cuace kat camerOn mase pagi-pagi arOund 8:30 am

pErgh,sejuk giLer beb!!!

me dad!!!sedang mengimbau kenangan LaLu,hehehe..skang aku da tau side mane nak snap pic ayah aku nie,huhuhu..muke aku n die same takk??? [die tak sedar mase aku amek pic nie]

nie antare pics yang aku amek,tapi tak upLoad kat sini semue cz maLas nak tunggu upLoad satu-satu..sO,anda boLeh La berkunjung ke frenster aku untuk pics-pics yang Lain..


dis One of the place yang aku pergi,very nice scenary..kat sini bLeh tengOk hOw the tea is make starting frOm the Leaves..[rOy,aku tak beLi kat sini teh kau tue,aku beLi kat tempat Len,yang secret-secret sket,hahaha]

camerOn trip

!!!heLLo-heLLo!!!

cam dah Lame tak update,miss ya wahai bLog-kuh

miss yOu tOo miss QieQie [cOngrats fOr the very happy date,hEe!!]

sekOLah pun da start

aku pun da baLik dari camerOn..

banyak pics aku amek and banyak gak benda baru yang aku beLajar..

kepaLe aku yang serabut agak tenang La kat sane..

aku makan dengan banyak tapi biLe pergi skewL ari isnin,pn azLina kate aku maken kurus..

??????

pastu meL2 Lak kate aku maken geLap..

??????

raseNye aku pergi tempat sejuk and takde La terdedah kat matahari sangat..

takpe Lah,aku terime semue tue dengan redha [rOy,pinjam ayat..]

seperti yang aku dah janji ngan rOy,aku beLikan die teh yang speseL frOm camerOn,

hOpefuLLy rOy suke r,penat aku piLih..

pastu aku beLi jem strawberi yang kecik-kecik fOr my kLasmates..

eika,pad,nada,sheeba,meL2,syaf and harris,harap anda semue suke..

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rupe-rupeNye,ayah aku pernah duduk kat camerOn nie mase die daLam kOmando..

nO wOnder La die tau jaLan-jaLan kat sane..

my dad duduk kat sane mase taun 1978 - 1981

die tak kawen ngan mak aku pun Lagi,ahax!!

oLeh itu,banyak La yang ayah aku fLashback mase kat sane..

cam "gO dOwn the memOry Lane"

bEsh gak cOz die jarang nak cerite pasaL sejarah hidup die

kitOrang ade makan kat satu rEstOran nie,my dad kate duLu die n kawan2 die saLu makan kat situ cz murah,sedap,tauke die tak berkire and sebab tuan punye kedai tue ade sOrang anak dare yang cun,cam keLakar je..

pastu we drOve passed by a hOspitaL [tapi sekarang jadik kLinik kerajaan] kat tanah rata,my dad kate duLu mase die dOk kOmandO,die penah jadik bidan kat hOspitaL tue..

uish,hebat gak ayah aku nie,hEe!!!

rupe-rupeNye,nak jadik kOmandO nie kne tau banyak mende bkan setakat pandai gune senjate and berperang je...baru akuh tau..

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aku pergi sane ngan famiLy aku and HN Rika nye famiLy

that incLudes cik mat [mama n babah Nye accOuntant yang Lawak abes] and famiLy,abg shucOre [sumOne big gak tapi aku tak sure pe pOst die] and famiLy..

aLL tOgether kami ade 13 orang [aduLts and kids]

patutNye perjaLanan dari kL ke camerOn arOund 4 jam setengah tapi disebabkan my dad nye driving cam ehem-ehem sket sO kitOrang sampai sane daLam mase 3jam sahaje..

thank gOd,cik mat and abg shucOre pun driving cam babah gak..

kitOrang duduk kat strawberry park resOrt yang cam kat hujung dunie..

my dad kate "kaLu duduk kat tempat camni baru reLax,tak bising"

ape2 La encek hamdan..

memang sejuk giLer ahh..dah La every evening ujan...

mengigiL akuh,Last2 demam pun tak kebah-kebah..

adEsh!!!

yang musykiL tue akak kau siap bLeh minum air ais Lagi tyme sejuk2 tue,giLe ke pe??

disebabkan sejuk,aku tak sempat Lak nak fLirt arOund,hehehe..

abg shucOre kate,"biLe dah sejuk2 cmni,keLenjar menggeLejat kOrang tak berfungsi"

hahahaha

senang stOry,this trip is reaLLy great!!!

off to highLand!!

gOod-bye semue!!!
i am off tO camerOn highLand!!!
ngan semue famiLy HN Rika!!!
bestNye!!!
this famiLy iz much mOre better than famiLy yang ade hubungan darah
betuL,aku tak tipu..
famiLy yang ade hubungan darah tak abes-abes nak gaduh je..
camni Lagi happy!!!

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waLaupun dah bape banyak kaLi pergi camerOn tue tapi
every trip ke sane tak penah bOsan!!!
nak reLax-reLax kan otak cz nanti nak triaL..
nak amek gambar banyak-banyak
nak makan banyak-banyak

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tapi agak sedih La cz tak Leh OnLine n update bLog!!!
takpe2,kite try bLogging gune phOne..
dunie kan dah maju...
heeee!!!

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tOodLes~~untiL thEn

cOnfuse much??

sejak akhir-akhir nie aku seLaLu berfikir,ape sebenarnye perasaan aku kat die??kenape die yang seLaLu ade daLam paLe aku??kenape aku seLaLu pikir pasaL die??tapi hakikatnye kami hanye kawan.teman tapi mesra.tapi kaLu kawan je,kenape kami saLu mesej??die bagitau segaLe2nye kat aku..why???cOnfuse aku..he is a very gOod fren..duLu die pernah kate yang he have hearts fOr me tapi cOz die Lebih sayangkan dan respect kawan die,die hadkan our reLatiOnship to juz friends..or shud i say,bestfriend..i feeL sO cOmfOrtabLe ngan die..aku memang payah sikit nak caLL orang gune my phOne unLess it is reaLLy impOrtant,tapi ngan die aku seLambe je caLL juz tO say hi.die La makhLuk yang aku carik kaLu aku sedih or dOwn..kaLu cakap ngan die mesti geLak nye.everytime mesti ade je tOpik kitOrang bincang..

"ada masa kita perLu menangis agar kita tahu dunia ini bukan hanya untuk ketawa, ada masa kita perLu ketawa agar kita tahu betapa berniLainya setitis air mata.. ada masa kita perLu ada seOrang teman agar kita tidak kesunyian.. dan ada masa kesunyian membuatkan kita tidak akan pernah Lupa betapa berniLainya seOrang teman..."

frOm :: a very gOod fren of LyNn
10:10pm 7 august 2008


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aku bengang La,sejak2 nie banyak nOmbOr peLik2 naik kat phOne aku!!
ntah mane-mane ntah
ade satu tue tetibe ajak aku kuar..
ambOi-ambOi,engat ape???
bangang!!!
"Lau U nak kenaL ngan i,kene ar kuar ngan i dLu"
pLease La,Like whatever!!!
sengaL
kekadang terpikir,sOrang makhLuk aLLah tue...
sudahLah aku dah mOved On [yeke??]
penat pikir pasaL die..

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ari tue tengOk cite "'Apa Kata Hati"
muLe2 cite die cam meLeret sket tapi Ok La
cam best je kaLu kite ade pOwer nak bace pikiran LeLaki
kan2??
tak payah ragu-ragu Lagi,senang hidup.
Lead actOr and actress ::

• raja farah - eLLy [girL yang bLeh bace fikiran LeLaki,optimist]
• dynas - Linda [bestfren eLLy,mOdeL,magnet suami Orang,nyampah ngan aidiL]
• farid kamiL - aidiL [boyfriend eLLy yang jadik mangse]
• awaL ashaari yang hensem!! - riezman [bOs eLLy yang suke kat eLLy m turn out to be a jerk!!,Last2 die hOok ngn Linda,awww sOo sweet!!!]

adOred Dynas's acting skiLL!!
dah La Lawa,sOo Lucky!!!
awaL sangat hensem!!!
sOo sweet!!!
aku suker!!!

a day at berjaya times square

pertandingan minum cOke [or izit pepsi?] paLing cepat!
the winner??arif raseNye..

pertandingan makan macarOni paLing cepat!!
the winner :: rOy!!!
ehh,yang kat beLakang tue jangan sebOk2 La,hihi
eika,anda tue tak sehat,kesian anda DNA kene MIX!!
harris,sebOk je kat beLakang tue,nice hair!! [reaLLy??ahax!!]

One end of the tabLe..
tikah wid her beLoved cayunk meL2
tirah,why sO shy2 babe?
adek tirah [aku asek Lupe je name die tue]

tikah and meL2!!
mereke sangat swEet!!
if onLy bOth of them Look tO the camera and be Lovey-dOvey,
this pic wiLL be perfect!!
tikah + meL2 = f.O.r.e.v.e.r [insya-aLLah,aku dOakan]

anOther side of the tabLe
hidayah yang buzy makan
racheL yang bEst
eika yang pening paLe sampai tak LaLu makan,
[sOrry beb,kerna aku DNA anda kne MIX]
pad,Lawa die ari nie,Love the tOp..[pad,die ade Long sLeeve x?]
nada,yeLLow is her theme coLour fOr tOday,
nO matter what she wear,die aLways cun!!

aku adaLah aku!!
befOre rOLLer cOaster wid fikri,harris,eika and fOrmer arch enemy,mOnkey!!
nO offense!!

LyNn and harris
captiOn :: orang-orang berani
after DNA MIXER
cuak beb tapi OK r..
tanx dude!! [winkk2**]
kami kawan saje!!!

akuh suke pic nie!!!
sebab due2 pun cm reaL giLer!!!
Lepas DNA MIXER..
DNA fikri n eika memang betuL2 kene mix!!
Lihat Lah muke dOrang!!!
chiLL2,hehehe

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16 august 2008
hari first skewL hOLs!!
jamuan keLas kitOrang buat kat times square
jamuan start pukuL 3 p.m sO befOre that aku and eika pergi cOsmO wOrLd duLu
pergh!!!
enjOy giLer!!!
Lepas sume tensy...
...sOrt of...
tak tau camne,fikri and harris jOin ktOrang,padahaL aku n eika tak janji ngan dOrang pun..
tak kesah Lah..
mOst unfOrgettabLe ride :: DNA MIXER
benci aku ride tue,that is my 2nd time
duLu mase pegi ngan hana dah vOw takkan naik dah,tapi sebab si fikry begOk tue,aku naik gak..
kan dah menjerit sampai terkeLuar anak tekak..
parah-parah..
harris,tanx a Lot...
arOund 3 p.m kitOrang dah nak keLuar dari cOsmO tai eika muntah Lak sO deLay sket..
**meL2 jangan r marah2,bukan sengaje Lambat,eika tak sehat r**
jamuan kitOrang kat "chicken's hertz"
the foOd was Okay
ade a few my kLazmate takde,bOoo-hOoo!!
syaf pun takde!!!
best La jugak,cume cam sOmething missing...
akuh tak tau La ape..
maybe cz cikgu takde kOt..
bukan..
jamuan tue cam ade yang tak cukup!!!
arOund 5 p.m eika baLik ngan nada cz die kene bLek kampung..
sO aku ajak harris teman pegi c.m jumpe my sys and amek barang..
[saje je ajak,tak sangke die foLLow,wOw!!]
aku dah beLi fLats!!!feet aching sbb wedges yang bOdoh tue!!
aku rase mesti my kLazmates da pikir macam2 mase aku gerak ngan harris tue..
kOrang,aku n die tak de ape2..
aku juz menepati janji mase kami debate je..
rOy dOk cakap,"amek peLuang nie"..what the f***???
sOrry,aku takde pe2 perasaan kat die...
aku ade anas La..heeeeeee!!!
harris kate,"kau nie suke curik hati Orang La LyNn"
hmmm???
baLik tue aku demam!!!
n kene grOunded ngn mak aku [sape Lagi]
die kat singapOre pun stiLL nak sebOk2 kn haL aku,
bikin darah upp seh!!!
achOy,kakak,abang,dOnget,hanes,syawaL,khaLish,bObOy,nana,nani
sOrry cz tak dapat baLik kaLi nie..
i prOmise nanti i baLik i bawak oLeh2..


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stuff

taa-daa!!
iniLah rupe aLmari aku yang penuh ngan stuff!!
Loads of baju kurung,shOes,perfumes,secret bOx,many-many memOribiLias,naiL pOLish,handbags and many mOre..
actuaLLy aku pun tak engat sangat pe yang ade daLam aLmari aku nie..
aku jarang bukak aLmari nie..
my daiLy cLoset ade Lain..

LoOk cLoseLy...
ape yang ade kat beLakang tue???
hehehe
di situ Lah LetakNye my chenta chayunk!!
kOmik-kOmik ku!!
duLu tempat die bukan kat situ,tapi terpakse diLetakkan di situ karena gOdaan kOmik-kOmik ini sungguh kuat!!
kaLau aku nampak keLibat kOmik-kOmik nie kOmpem aku tak study..
waLaupun aku dah pernah bace semue kOmik nie tapi aku nie suke bace banyak-banyak kaLi..

newest member of my chenta chayunk famiLy!!
sebenarnye mase aku beLi kOmik nie,ade Lagi 3 kOmik baru..
aku nak beLi,tapi duit tak cukup!!!
sedeh akuh!!!
tak tidO maLam aku!!!
hahaha
nak mintak duit kat parents?fOrget it,kOmpem tak dapat..
'tuttt'
duit tepOn pun tak dapat!!
bengang siak aku!!
takpe-takpe
cOoL LyNn..
zint ade kOmik baru,Le gardenie part three pun dah kuar,kOmik transLate baru pun ade!!!
wAhh,bOLeh giLak akuh!!!

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antare kawan yang paLing aku sayang tengah sangat sedih sekarang
kesian die..
kenape die sedih??
die rase diri die sangat tak gune and die rase bersaLah cz die teLah wat adek die saket..
aku tak suke La die sedih-sedih..
nanti aku pun sedih jugak..
shadiq,anda jangan La begitu,dah takdir nak jadik camtu,nak wat cmne..
cOoL brO...

absent

15 august 2008
friday
the best thing bOut today iz hari nie ari Last skewL,nanti kitOrang cuti One wEek!
hOorayy!!!
tapi tadi pagi teacher maLini da siap pesan awaL-awaL,"fOr thOse whO wiLL be taking yOur exams,dOn't enjOy tOo much,pLeasa study"
wAhh,bikin mOod cuti dOwn La my LoveLy teacher/debate cOchie..
hehehehe
actuaLLy what she said is true..

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mase assembLy tadi aku [seperti nOrmaL] mEngusha 'mereke-mereke'..
saket hati siak!!!
anas absEnt La!!!
...adOiyh...
hati LyNn berkate-kate,"pe La die nie,dah La ari Last skewL befOre cuti,kang jadik pe-pe kat aku mase cuti nie kang kan da tak jumpe!"
and a certain sOmeOne pun absent gak!!!
geram akuh,cam nak meLetOp!!
takpe-takpe
Like I care!!

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first periOd BM,puan hanim,seperti biase,die suke bercerita tentang haL ehwaL semasa kat kitOrang..bagus gak bagi Orang yang tak tengOk berite/bace surat khabar cam aku nie.
puan hanim nie die suke ajar kami berpandangan jauh.
waLaupun kadang-kadang mengantuk,tapi biLa kita betuL-betuL gunekan ape yang die kate tue,it is very usefuL,Lagi-Lagi daLam karangan..
tadi wOrd BM baru yang aku beLajar is :: PAWANG ANA maksudnya seLoka [aku rase La]

2nd periOd biOLogy,puan rOshazita,die absent..
aii,cuti awaL nampak cher??
hehehehe
absent-absent pun die sempat bagi hOmewOrk tue,
adeiii
"dearest my 5bEst,this is yOur wOrk fOr the hOLidays,pLease get it dOne and we wiLL discuss it after the break.pLease take care of yOurseLf and happy hOLiday!"
puan rOshazita tuLis nOte untuk kami..
aku rase nOte tue cam sangat swEet..
teacher nie pun ajar bEst..die suke kaitkan Our daiLy Life dengan biOLogy..
pLus die pandai 'bace/tafsir' sOmeOne tue by Looking at sOmeOne's face..
die beLajar mende nie mase kat U,subjek eLektif.
die pernah kate kat aku,"yOu,kaLau nak kawen nanti,piLih eLok-eLok,tak pun suruh yOur parents carikan,Lagi bagus sebab nanti yOu susah nak piLih"
hahahahah
sOoooo keakar La ini cikgu punye statement..
baekkLah cikgu,saye akan engat pesan cikgu tue sampai biLe-biLe..

!!!REHAT!!!
aku,nada,eika,pad,shEeba ade pOrt baru nak Lepak tyme rehat
sejak-sejak 5b n 5p kene wanted ngan cikgu ari tue,kitOrang terpakse La jadik baekk

third periOd addmaths,puan azLina,saya sangat suke beLajar addmaths..
kiOrang bincang handOut yang cikgu kasi ari tuh..
7 sOaLan out of 25 questiOn aku tak Leh jawab,adEsh..
camne nak amek pekse nie??
takpe-takpe,Lagi 18 sOaLan tue aku betuL semua!!!
hahahaha
berbangge aku ngan diri aku sendiri,hehehe
cikgu pregnant,maybe baby girL,yAyy!!!
kesian cikgu,die rase nak pitam..
iLek cikgu,cOoL2...
aku suke beLajar addmath sebab die La,die banyak berkOrban untuk kami.
dari fOrm4 die ajar aku addmath..memang best La cikgu nie ajar..

Last periOd 12:00pm,engLish,puan seLva
semangat tunggu die masuk cz nak anta essay yang die suruh wat semaLam
titLe : describe yOur mOst unfOrgettabLe persOn yOu ever met
best giLer
tapi at first aku ade prObLem nak tuLis cz aku tak tau nak tuLis pasaL sape..
muLe-muLe nak tulis pasaL ++++ tapi biLe eika cakap sOmething then i changed my mind.
after hOw many years,eventuaLLy i gOne dOwn the memOry Lane..

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hari nie eika akan tidur umah aku cz esOk nak pergi Times square ade jamuan keLas,,
yAyy,sLeepOver!!!
yang paLing bEst,mak ayah aku takde!!!
and yang paLing bEst tahap infinity is adek aku yang "tutt" tue takde!!!
serOnOk!!!
esOk nak raid cOsmO,nak jerit puas-puas..
nak re-stress..
Otak aku semak,perLu spring cLeaning..
ka,kite enjOy!!!

siapa dia?

siapakah dia??

dia La the very cute guy yang kate,"wat pe kite suke kat orang yang suke kat kite,baik kite suke kat orang yang tak suke kite,baru mencabar"

die nie pernah ade skandaL ngan kLazmate aku 2 years agO..

hari ini kau datang riang

!!annOuncement!!
handphOne anas hiLang!!
ohh tidakk!!!
...kesian die...
camne aku nak cOntact die nie?
dah La kat skewL pun jarang nak jumpe..
takpe2,i'll think of something..

tadi kat skewL,eika teLah menyawOn sOmebOdy yang memang Layak untuk disOund..ade ke patut die kate eika bisu?bengang giLer La member aku tue..
hah,kan da kena,padan muke...
biar die,nasib..

hari nie aku and eika toLong sOmeone mendirikan masjid..
nOt exactLy mendirikan masjid La tapi kami toLong die dapatkan sOmeOne..
kekadang aku terpikir,kenape La aku toLong die..
nak kate aku baek giLer ngn die,takde La puLak.
maybe aku paham perasaan die..
perasaan camne kite suke giLer kat someOne and try Our bEst tO get him/her tapi him/her tue wat bOdo + tak Layan sikit pun..
sakit sangat perasaan tue..
i am a living prOof

study

after beberape Lame tak mEngepOst bLog,

kini mase sudah tibe untuk mEngepOst..

nak cakap pasaL pe yek?

• very busy with studies,makLum Le triaL dah dekat..stay kat skewL sampai petang untuk eLakkan tidur petang!!my frEns ramai yang buat study grOup tapi aku tak Leh jOin La cOz aku tak Leh study grOup nanti sEmbang puLak sO aku study soLo-soLo saje..berkesan??ofcOz..tOday,aku stay kat skewL and buat revisiOn addmath.mase kat skewL tadi,ade due Orang manusie yang sgt swEet!!


• baLik pukuL 4:30 pm,terserempak ngan nad,and finaLLy aku dapat tanye die sOaLan yang aku dah Lame nak tanye die :: "nad,kau ngan twinz dah tak rapat ke?"..jawapan die??sangat mudah :: "kau perasan LyNn??"..then aku teruskan perjaLanan puLang,terserempak ngan syed aLif [my adEq,kesian die kene baLik Lambat] then terserempak ngan anas [my chEnta hati??haha] die offer nak anta baLik tapi,"tak yah Lah awak,wat susah je"..aku sangat penat La hari nie,anas nie tadi skewL tak datang,sepuk kang..then terserempak ngan shadiq [my bestest friend] senyum Lebar mamat tue dari jauh Lagi,aku ngan muke penat pun senyum La jugak,sempat Lagi die wat Lawak tue [tue La sebab aku sayang giLer kat die,aLways making me happy] pesan die yang wat aku geLak :: "Liyana,hati-hati jaLan tue"..cam La seLame nie aku tak hati-hati jaLan,adOiyh..


• bace bLog sOmeOne yang sungguh menyakitkan hati,orang macam tue pun wujud ke??die tue kene pergi jumpe ngan pakar sakit jiwe La..camne La jadik PRS biLe sebenarnye diri die yang perLu dibimbing..die pikir diri die dah bagus??setakat akedemik,takyahLa..sOsiaL??faiL!!!tak puas hati or ade prObLem,cakap La depan-depan,menyusahkan orang je.


• Lepas nie aku dah tak nak amek kesah pasaL mende-mende Lain,yang ade daLam kepaLe otak aku skang is onLy beLajar and dO the bEst fOr triaL and spm nanti..maLas nak amek pOrt dah..


• a very cute guy cam interested in me!!oOps!!!yeke??giLer perasaan kau nie LyNn..die pernah kate,"wat pe suke orang yang suke kite,baik suke orang yang tak suke kite,baru mencabar"..hmm??takpe2 kite juz wait and see..


• hym,sangat memeningkan paLe aku..pe pOint die ntah??sudah-sudah Lah tue,jangan buat aku berharap Lagi..pintu hati dah tertutup..puLang Lah anda ke pangkuan auni hanani..she must be a reaLLy gOod gurL..


• pad,kenape anda??sangat peLik minggu ini..penat kah?ade prObz ke??ntahLa,aku tak tahu..

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middle child syndrOme

the middle or secOnd bOrn chiLd or chiLdren often have the sense of nOt beLonging.they fight to receive attention frOm parents and others because they feel many times they are being ignOred or dubbed off as being the same as anOther sibLings.being in the middle a child can feel insecure.the middle child often lacks drive and looks for direction frOm the first bOrn child.sOmetimes a middle child feels out of place because they are not over achievers and like to go with the fLow of things.

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LyNn's fEeL::

[sOme of them,often seeks attentiOn eLsewhere other than their Own famiLy.exampLe:: they try their hardest to exceLL in schOoLs sO that the teachers wiLL nOtice them,they aLways dOne their hOmewOrk On time]

[they dO nOt seeks attentiOn just frOm teachers,they seek frOm friends mOstLy.friEnds becOme number One.middLe chiLd is nOt a famiLy persOn.they want other peOpLe tO nOtice and Love her.she try tO make everybOdy tO Love her.enjOy her cOmpany.why is this happen?weLL,since famiLy can't prOvide them with sufficient attentiOn (since the famiLy dO nOt knOw hOw tO appriciate them) sO they gO tO peopLe whO appriciate aLL her hardwOrk]

[mOre exampLe :: they dO nOt reaLLy share what they reaLLy think and fEeL,she gave peOpLe what they want tO hear.exampLe :: a fren asked,"sesuai tak tOpi nie ngan aku?" a middLe chiLd answer,"cun,sesuai ngan OrangNye" actuaLLy she wanted tO say "tak sesuai Langsung,kO pakai tOpi pe pun tak smart" middLe chiLd said Like that because she dOesn't want peOpLe tO hate her.]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Adding second and third children greatly impacts the family structure, and a middle child is created. Yes, the “Middle Child Syndrome” is very real. Middle kids bemoan their fate as being ignored and often grow resentful of all the parental attention given to the oldest and the baby of the family, and feel short-shifted. Three kids triangulate sibling relationships, with one child at any given point feeling like the odd man out from the chumminess of the other two.

Parents tend to be much more easy-going, less anxious, and less demanding with second and third children. Thus many middle children grow up with a more relaxed attitude towards life than their older siblings; though they have to compete for family attention against the milestones set by the oldest, and growing up in their shadow. Middle children have to try a little harder to “be heard” or get noticed. The middle child usually has to fight harder for the attention of their parents and therefore crave the family spotlight. They may feel that they do not get as much praise as the older children for simple firsts like tying a shoe or riding a bike. Those things just become expected.

:: LyNn's feeL ::

i am nOt making this up,this is the truth..

even pyschOLogist said there are syndrOme such 'middLe chiLd syndrOme (MCS)'

MCS is a emOtiOnaL and psychoLogicaL heartache.

It is a chronic disorder and can be quite damaging. Being the middle child means not having a significant place in your own family. While the first-born gets praised for being the first at everything and the youngest can get away with murder due to cuteness, the middle child ends up competing for attention, love and a li’l respect.

:: MCS phases ::

• phase One = Coping with anonymity.
• phase twO = Trying to feel special. [make others (nOn-famiLy peOpLe) tO nOtice /appriciate /Love them]
• phase three = anger + hatred + hitting sibLings emOtionaLLy or physicaLLy.hOwever,sOme of them can't even tOuch the yOunger sibLings bcz the yOunger Ones aLways have parents tO defend them.sO,what can a middLe chiLd do??simpLy juz keep the anger + hatred tO herseLf and sLowLy making them gO crazy!!!!!
• phase fOur = deniaL.famiLy is nO Longer the mOst impOrtant thing.
• phase five = Emotional-yet-recoverable breakdown.because keeping tOo much anger + hatred to themseLves sOmetimes they had a breakdOwn but in this phase it is stiLL recOverabLe.
• phase six = EMO,nO Longer can be heLp.tOo much anger and hatred tOwards the parents and the sibLings.

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LyNn is nOw in phase three

thOugh a middLe chiLd is aLways Lack of attentiOn + Love frOm the famiLy but they are the Ones whO gain a Lot of attentiOn frOm other peOpLe.they are the Ones whO knOws hOw tO 'steaL' the LimeLight outside the hOusehOLd.

mari malas-maLas

arghh!!!

wabak maLas sudah datang!!!

take cOver!!!

hari nie hari maLas sedunie bagi aku..

hari nie Okay2 je...

ade sOrang kLazmate aku tue kene kaw-kaw nye ngan aku..

naseb kau La..

sape sOh wat aku panas???

yang keLakar nye,orang Lain pun jOin sekaLi

as far as i nOe,dOrang tue bukan ade kOnfLik ngan dak tue pun..

hahahaha

saje je nak amEk peLuang bahan Orang..

sejak akhir-akhir nie kLazmates aku ramai yang cam dah berubah..

[termasuk La aku]

tapi yang agak ketare iz Our mr.mOnitOr..

tetibe datang sekOLah pakai sOngkOk pastu stay back kat skewL Lepak Library untuk study..

pErgh!!!

respEct La..

maybe die sedar that the exams is just arOund the cOrner..

aku pun nak fOLLow kau La,tapi aku study kat umah saje..

hEeee!!!

hari nie again Orang tue wat pasaL..

pe pOint die sebenarnye???

cukup La tue,aku dah penat!!!

hari nie bincang pasaL jamuan lagi..

part makan-makan dah settLe

cume tinggaL part activity je..

pLan nak raid cOsmOwOrLd tapi ramai Lak yang banyak aLasan..

adOiyh!!!

kesian kat cOmittee activity...

aku tak kire La,jadik ke tak aku and eika cOnfirm gerak sane...

kitOrang nak reLease tEnsy..

siap practice jerit Lagik..

hahahaha

tadi anas kat skewL bEing sOo kiut!!!

oOpss!!!

benci kat die

hari isnin 4 august 2008,Lagi 99 hari nak sPm

pErgh!!!

bengOng aku camnie...

hari nie aku banyak cursing + mEncar*t La

habit Lame datang baLik..

pe nak jadik nie LyNn???

eika tak datang Lak,hantu tOL minah tue..

hahahaha

sOmething happen On sunday afternOon yang wat aku resah geLisah!!!

aku dapat 4 missed caLLs frOm Orang tue..

pe die nak nie???

stress La..

tapi aku tak respOnd pe2 pun cz mase tue fOn dalam biLik and aku kat bawah..

lantakLah...

saket hati biLe ter'ingat what i saw Last wEek..

Ouchh,saket!!!

pastu maLam tue aku mimpi tuan punye suare yang mEnyape aku seLaLu tue,

ape pOint ntah??

hari nie sangat bengang dengan my oL'frEn [a girL]

die pikir standard die tinggi sangat sampai tak Leh kawan ngan Orang tue??

kau pikir kau baik sangat ke???

oOoOo,yang Layak kawan ngan kau hanye Orang2 seperti 'itu' saje Lah???

memang dasar ********

kesian kawan aku yang guy tue...

guy tue sanggup dO anything fOr my oL'frEn tue..

baLasan nye??

he is treated Like sOme kind Of thief...

he didn't dO it La!!!

pe prOof yang kau ade sampai kau tergamak tuduh die camtu???

nak je aku cepuk2 paLe my oL'frEn tue...

u dun have the right nak wat die macam tue...

tengOkLah,satu hari nanti u wiLL regret Losing a frEn Like that guy..

what cOmes arOund,gOes arOund..[aku Living prOof tO that fact]

nOte to my oL'frEn :: "aku tak nak cakap dengan kau dah,i dun care!!!"

kenape La my gurL-frEns frOm there sume camtu??

my bEstfren and nOw her...

[duLu aku begitu tapi i've changed]

tO that guy :: i'm sO sOrry i can't heLp yOu anymOre,tak sanggup nak tengOk kau kene macam2 ngan die..Lupekan lah die

kenduri

aku mase kenduri dOa seLamat kat umah baru-baru nie

pakai baju kurung y'aLL!!

aku,dOngEt and adeq aku

taken by hanis on a very hOt saturday evening

mase nie tengah bz-bz fOr persiapan kenduri

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weekend kaLi nie bEst La jugak despite that we have skewL that mOrning..

bOo-hOo!!

rase sangat maLas nak pergi sekuLah tapi ku gagahkan jua diriku untuk pergi

sebab hari tue cikgu janji nak sambung tOpik Linear prOgramming [addmath]

aku suke giLer tOpik tue,same cam aku suke tOpik cOordinate geOmetry

nerd La kau nie LyNn!!!

mOving On...

mak and ayah aku anta aku pergi skewL and kak nOr and abg isyam tagged aLong cz they need tO gO to the market and buy things fOr the kenduru Later that nite..

[nOte :: kak nOr and abg isyam iz my cOusins frOm singapOre yang turun kL juz tO cOok fOr Our kenduri,kak nOr iz a great cOok!!]

mase sampai sekOLah,the weather is nOt very inviting,suram je..

takpe2

tO my surprise,my kLazmate ramai yang datang..

hahahaha

semangat nak beLajar kamu semue!!!

maLangnye hari tue cikgu addmath tak datang..

tidakkkk!!!

die hanye meninggaLkan hOmewOrk pade nizam..

takpeLah,mungkin cikgu tak sehat..

hari nie segaLe2nye suram and tak aktif..

tapi there was an 'excitment' tOwards the end of the schooL sessiOn

mase chEmy,pn.rOzita [Our cLass teacher] disscussed of our prObLems..

mase nie aku bengang giLer ngan due Orang...

memang siOt due mangkuk tue!!!!

bOdOh giLer...

sendirik yang tak tau nak mix ngan Orang Lain pastu saLahkan Orang Lain kate disisihkan..

cam ceLake jerk!!!

mase awaL2 bincang tak nak puLak bantah Or bersuare,biLe everything da siap,mase tue gak nak bOikOt r pe mende r...

haish,payah betuL Orang camnie!!!

pastu ramai yang cakap je Lebih...

tak tau pe-pe pastu nak cakap banyak puLak..

aku nak pesan r kat Orang-orang yang ade sifat camni ::

"weyh,tak tau pe2 jangan r cakap banyak,u make urseLf LoOk stupid!!!dah r memang tak bape bijak,biLe wat camtu lagi r terserlah kebOdOhan kOrang tue"

pastu i embarassed myseLf mase tue...

adOiyhhhhh!!!!

tak bOLeh cOntrOL La,a Lot gOing On in my head!!!

pn.rOzita,thank yOu sO much...

biLe baLik,abg isyam fetch me bringing aLong adeq [as a guide] and dOnget [ngade2 nak ekOt]

hahahahaha

biLe daLam kerete baruLah aku dapat cOoL dOwn sikit...

aLhamduLiLah...

sampai je rumah,kepuLangan ku disambut oLeh bau asam pedas yang on the way nak masak,

wAhhh,sedapNye!!!!

sepantas kiLat aku pergi mandi and tukar baju..

mEnu fOr kenduri maLam tue were ::

+ asam pedas ikan jenahak [faveret akuh!!!sedap makan ngan rOti n nasik]

+ asam pedas ikan tenggiri

+ sambaL gOrang [cOnsists of kacang panjang,tauhu,tempe,and udang]

+ ayam masak merah

+ masak Lemak kuning

+ kek marbLe kaLer-kaLer [meriah giLer kaLer die!!]

+ variOus type of kuih bOught by pak busu

the kenduri was heLd after the isya' prayer

ramai jugak jiran-jiran yang datang..

sOme famiLiar face and sOme unfamiLiar face..

the kenduri ends arOund 11pm

aku makan sangat banyak On that day..

pErgh!!!

cOmfOrt fOod wa cakap Lu!!!

therefOre,aku tidO dengan nyenyak nye pade maLam itu...

hahahahaha

sOmething abOut him

pade maLam hari rabu [30 juLy 2008]

aku merase sangat bengang dengan anas!!!

argh!!!

muLe-muLe die kasi member die kawan ngan aku

pastu skang member die tue da peLik-peLik ngan aku

mintak gambar La kejadah La..

anas sendiri pun tak pernah camtu..

maLam tue member die mintak pastu aku pun musykiL r..

risau pun ade gak!!!

Last-Last aku dapat satu idea

**ting!!!**

"tanye La anas duLu"

"aLa,nanti anas mesti suruh tanye awak baLik"

"ahh,tanye je r die"

[nOte :: aku tak nak kasi sebenarnye sO biar die gO tru anas duLu,dengan harapan anas wiLL say nO]

tapi maLangNye.......

"awak send je La pic tue,nanti saye bLeh bLutOoth skaLi"

adOiyh!!!!!

bengang giLer aku...

ahh,due-due same je..

cehh...

tapi da maLam sket arOund 11pm aku msj anas and teLL him hOw bengang + disappOinted am i kat die...

then die kate ::

"sOrry La,actuaLLy Lepas da bLutOoth kt fOn saye pastu saye nak deLete La pic tue"

oOoooOooooOOoooo

hEeeeee!!!

after he said that aku cam dah tak rase bengang puLak..

tak tau La nape...

hahahahaha

pe-pe pun aku n anas da cam duLu baLik and maybe even better..

skang cam da steady and ready fOr 'further expLoratiOn' in Our friEndship..

oOpss!!!

rase cam faLL in Love again with the same persOn je

perasaan nie Lebih kurang same cam perasaan aku mase fOrm 3 duLu..

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